I watched him from afar. Always from afar. I couldn’t, not ever, walk up to him. I couldn’t even look at him in the eye. It would be too embarrassing.

As I looked at him, jealousy bubbled up. He was laughing. Again. Laughing with his girls. Again. It was tiring to look at. Depressing and tiring, yet I couldn’t take my eyes ( Read more... )

            “Seung Ri!” Young Bae cried out, fighting back his laughter. “Seung Ri, you’re turning blue!”

Even with his squinted eyes, Seung Ri tried to glare at the older boy. His cheeks were hurting, not to mention his head.

“Ri, stop it!” Young Bae yelled, in a mix of laughter and concern.

The younger boy ( Read more... )

“Okay, Maknae,” Young Bae hyung said to me in the practice room. “I can tell you’ve been working hard, so show me what you’ve got.”

I nodded and began my steps as he turned up the music.

I loved dancing and choreographing for the group. It was something I enjoyed doing as a member of Big Bang. It was something that made me ( Read more... )